You always want what you can't have till it yours the girl the guy the job the house the talent the world you want it and once you gain it you want to change it you lock it up, you cage it, deface it, erase it from the wild take away the mystery make it "your own" as if it was ever really yours to begin with you say you want God till you realize He isn't under your control--- you can't tame Him you want the ocean deep but only deep enough for you to walk in you can't handle t

It's been a long time, way too long since I've written on here. A few people have encouraged me recently to get back to it, to "pick the pen back up" so to speak. It's hard though. So much has happened since the last time I wrote on here. And honestly, I'm still going through the pain of the hardest loss of my life-- my dad passing away. As I sat here contemplating what to write, asking God what I have to write that could be of any value, He reminded me of how I cannot live u